Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Home is Where the Heart Is

So today’s post is a little more personal then I usually write but that’s just how its gonna be today.

As most everyone knows Brian and I moved to Jacksonville FL a little over a year ago. We moved for his job and it was an, all of a sudden kind of move. Only 2 months after we got married and had just settled and unpacked in our new apartment, he got the news that he was accepted for this job. We drove down to FL (6 hours drive), found an apartment in one day and drove back home. The fact that I didn’t kill Brian that day is a miracle.

Anywho, it just so happened that the Apartment complex where we decided to live was hiring for a new leasing consultant. While we were doing the application process, the manager asked me what I was going to be doing for a job. I told her that I had no idea but was looking to find one. And guess what? She basically hired me right then. It was such a blessing! It didn’t hurt that she was from NC too and loved the tar heels as much as I did. But I remember making that drive back after we left and thinking about how amazing God is. He knew what I needed and he provided.    

Fast forward to today. Jacksonville has been a struggle for me. Everyone knows that I don’t like it. Probably since the day we moved here, I have been planning on moving back. I didn’t even unpack our boxes or hang pictures on the walls for a long time, because I did not want to stay. Brian promised me after a year we could move back home. He had to get these different licenses for his job and stay for one year. That was his obligation. Later on he found out that it was one year from the day he passed him last test. That brings us to today. We have now done our time and put in the grueling year ½ that we were obligated to.

Probably since January we have been seriously looking at jobs back home, places to live, planning our escape plan. All the while, I have been in constant prayer about this. I pray that if it is God’s will for us to move back, then to please open the doors necessary and if it’s not, to close those doors. Brian has had a couple of places to do phone interviews with him, but it has never worked out. The more I pray about it, the more I feel like God closes those doors tighter. The past couple of times I have been home, it just hasn’t felt the same. Everything and everyone is different, or maybe it's just that I am in a different place in my life right now.

So that brings me to this. I have accepted the fact that we are not moving home any time soon. I have decided that we are here for a reason and that I have only hated Jacksonville because it wasn’t home. I have not given it a chance or even tried to enjoy it. I have the beach and the most amazing shopping. I'm less than 2 hours from Disney World and Savannah GA. There are palm trees everywhere I look and we found an awesome church that we love going to. So with much thought and prayer, the O’Donohues are here to stay in the sunny state for a while. It may not be home, I may not have my family, and I might hate when someone says, “Oh your from up there?” No I’m from the South, the real South. Your state might be further down from mine but that does not make you southern. But all in all, I think this is just one chapter in our lives and a journey that isn’t quite ready to be over. I miss so many things about NC but if I don’t start opening my heart to Jacksonville, I just might miss out on some of the best times of my life?

If you have made it to the end of this and not fallen asleep, then you are my hero. I could make this so much longer, but I will stop boring you now!

Home is where the heart is, and life is what you make it, so make it worth it.


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